8 Months Already!!!

Starr is 8 months old!! I can not believe how time flies!!! I talk about this a lot,but it is because I am truly amazed by the speed of time once you have kids!! When I was younger I remember that I couldn't wait until I was in high school, then I couldn't wait to drive, to drink (Legally), to live on my own, and finally to have a family...................................
Two babies later, it is WARP speed ahead and I can barely remember what day it is. Birthdays are a mess, if I don't pre-set the dates in my phone and remember to set reminders for one year later I would undoubtedly forget even the most important of Birthdays! I am trying so hard to soak in and absorb all the wonderful moments that I am fortunate to experience with my kiddies, but in doing so I find that just as quickly as a moment comes, it passes. All these memories cram into my mind and then old memories get shoved aside to make room for the new ones. Once the room is so tight in that  space the oldest memories start to leak out of my memory bank and I find I am desperately trying to hold on to as many as possible. Could it be true that we are just biologically set to try to grasp and hang onto our youth for as long as we can from the moment we are born? Are we just programmed to always looking back whether positively or negatively? You always hear people tell you,"Don't look back, focus forward!" or "Keep your eye on the prize, end result...." Yada yada. I get all that, but I want to always be able to look back and remember when I first met my Hubster and when I laid eyes on my little ones for the first time. I want to always look back to the memories that fill my heart with so much joy I could literally burst into tears of happiness that would be enough to drown an entire city. (Hmm...Visual is interesting...) Yet, somehow I know that TIME. Time will run it's course and I may not remember everything at some point. I will be drastically grasping for memories as they flee from my mind. Time is taking away so much but giving me just as much in return. In one blink my little ones will be grown and having families of their own , should they choose. My Hubster and I will have the most lovely wrinkles and flaps of thin papery skin that has lost all elasticity. We will walk, though much, much slower, still hand in hand and in love discussing our most fondest memories (the ones we remember at least). I can only hope that TIME will give us that long and then just a little bit more. Until then, I am just trying to keep up with time and not let it get too far ahead of me. I am trying to take time to stop and inhale, rewind and repeat all those memories, absorb the moments as I am in them, and just accept this crazy reality that TIME really plays its own devious game that I can not control.